ponder

verb: think about something carefully, especially before making a decision or reaching a conclusion

I have pondered for some time now the idea of starting a blog. I'm not 100% sure what I will be writing about, how often I will be doing it, or even why I am doing it, but I keep feeling these nudges in my spirit that I need to. That perhaps someone will find it who ponders the same things I do or who is looking for some answers that perhaps they will find here. Or maybe it's just because I have so many thoughts in my heart and mind that need to be put down and maybe this isn't for anyone except me. Only time will tell.

I do know a few things...I tend to bottle things up. Emotions, thoughts, ideas, desires, fears. I need to get them out. I also know that I can and need to write and I have been ignoring that nudge for so long. Why? Because writing can make me feel raw and naked. Like I am exposing myself. It feels safer and more peaceful somehow to just continue on and not write and not share. 

I was told many years ago that I have a lot of gold inside me that needs to be let out. I personally don't really see it but I trust the person who told me that and I often think about what they said. Maybe I do have gold inside me and maybe someone needs to see it, hear it, read it. So this is me stepping out in faith, sharing my thoughts, ideas, knowledge I have gained through my many years on this earth. There is so much I have learned, am learning, hope to learn.

This blog will likely be a mix of everything from health to homeschooling to church to living with a preteen and all the things in between. The ponderings of my heart and mind. I'm not even sure where I am going to start but at least now I have a platform to do it on and I hope you will join me.

Come ponder with me awhile.